Monday, 30 April 2012

  • Realization

    As an overweight person I have been through the motions with my self image.

    I was one of those girls who clung to that thought that I could be healthy at my weight.  I now see that this just isn't true. I understand there are those rare cases where someone is healthy and overweight but for the most part it's just plain bad for you.

    I understand that it's important to not make people feel bad about how they look.  However, it's shouldn't be said that being unhealthy is okay at any size.  

    I want to be healthy.  I just had this realization that consuming 3000+ calories a day, eating my emotions, and sitting on my ass was not going to make me happier, it was making me more depressed.  Eating right and working out is so vital to being happy for me, I can't even express what a change I've seen in myself.

    I'm down 19lbs now, and I have no intentions of stopping!

  • You're kidding, right?

    My sister's boyfriend continues to be a constant source of stupid.

    Last weekend he pissed Michael off enough that Michael told him to stop or he was going to kick his ass.  And shortly after that he pissed me off and I just went off on him.  I don't know if he is this way intentionally or if he's just outright stupid.  The way he talks to people is very confrontational.  Anything you say, he's got a comeback to it and he's right.  Not to mention he interjects himself into conversations he's not a part of.

    To further my annoyance with him, he is one of those people.  You know, the ones who think everything their "friends" do is cool, and try to do it too.  I don't think there's a thought or hobby in this kids head that didn't come from one of his friends.

    Well anyway it can be summed up to him and my sister are basically still children.  Despite being 21 and 20.  They rely on Michael and me for everything.  Michael drives them to and from work (a massive strain on Michael and he only gets the gas it costs to get them there and back in return), and they don't clean up after themselves or my sister's cat so I have to do that.  It's more than frustrating and I really just want to live with JUST Michael now after the experiences I've had living with other people.

    Moving on, today the moron had to start up again.  They call us when they're ready to be picked up since it varies.  I was up with Michael when they called so I rode with them.  It should be noted that Michael is typically a very passive guy and won't say things until he's at his breaking point.  We get there and they aren't out yet.  We sat and waited in the parking lot till they came out and Michael told me this is a very common thing.  Now, I won't stand for it because I look at it as Michael is doing them a huge favor considering they've been working long enough to save enough money to get a car, they've just done more irresponsible things instead. 

    When they got in the car I told them it was really rude to call before they were actually ready to be picked up.  I explained what I explained above and how Michael doesn't get squat for doing this and they should be extremely grateful instead of acting like entitled brats.  Of course, I get attitude from my sister's boyfriend.  "Well he doesn't always come when we call, so I was making sure we got picked up on time, we don't like to wait," Excuse me asshole, but you work graveyard shift and Michael does not.  He never gets enough sleep because picking them up cuts into that so if sometimes he can't get out of bed right away, they need to just shut their mouths and deal with it!

    After this Michael and I went to bed and they stayed up as they usually do.  I wake up a few hours later because there's a guy here to fix the AC.  On the fridge door is a note telling me all the things I need to clean today... I'm guessing this is them being passive aggressive since when I went to bed they were cooking and I simply asked that they clean their dishes after (because if I don't ask, they don't do them, and if I do ask it's a toss up on if it actually gets done).

    I honestly think this kid may be just stupid.  I don't know if he thinks this is funny, or if he thinks he gains some leverage by cleaning up after himself (something I do everyday, cleaning up after myself and them most times), but its not fucking funny.

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

  • Tuesday was me and Michael's 5-year anniversary!    He got the day off (without requesting it, wewt!) and we just had a great time together.  I cooked us a steak dinner which was awesome (and the first red meat I've had since starting my diet!).  We reminisced all day.  I can barely remember what my life was like before him, because we've been together since I was so young.  I love proving people wrong though.  We used to get crap all the time about how we wouldn't be together long, or we'd get sick of each other.  But it hasn't happened.  We have such a strong bond and a great relationship, I couldn't ask for more from a partner.

    He has also started working out with me!  But only on the strength training days since he's already "skinny" he just wants to build more muscle.  It's so much more fun to work out with someone.  I push myself way harder when he's working out with me, we get a little competitive lol.  Even though he clearly out does me in push ups and the like.

    Other than that I'm proud to say that I have lost 16lbs and 5.5inches off my waist!  I feel great!

     

Monday, 16 April 2012

  • My Progress

    I'm on day 22 of P90X/my new diet.  I've been noticing a lot of changes, physically and mentally.

    I eat very differently now.  Of course I've started eating a lot more fruits and vegetables, and completely cut out red meat.  I still miss steak and burgers but I know my body will thank me for it in the end.  Also now I just eat small meals or snacks through out the day.  I can't eat as much at one time as I used to which is awesome.  My calorie intake has been a little lower than it should be because of this but I'm hoping to get things balanced out soon (I'm all about healthy dieting, not starvation!).  I also drink protein shakes after my workouts, and use tuna and chicken as a way to make sure I'm getting enough protein.

    Working out has become such an integrated part of my life.  To the point where when I get my one day a week break, it just feels weird! I enjoy all of the workouts I've done so far with P90X which has been a big part of my success.

    I have so far lost 15lbs.  But I have lost a lot of inches (5 on my waist and at least 3 everywhere else).  My pants are LOOSE!  I see so much improvement when I look in the mirror.  But the biggest benefit is I feel PROUD of myself.  And I have so much more energy and just feel so much more alive.  To anyone thinking about taking the next step to get healthier, I urge you to do it.  It IS worth it.  And you will not regret it.

Monday, 09 April 2012

  • Bleh

    Okay I'll admit it....I regret drinking last night.  It's just not fitting in with my healthy lifestyle at all.  I felt bloated and gross all morning, then when I worked out I felt terrible.  It was one of the "lighter" workout days and I struggled because I just felt nasty.  I even almost puked at one moment!  I probably won't be doing that again for a long time.

    But on the bright side, 16 days down, 74 to go!

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